There has been no conscious decision on my part to stop writing. Over the last few weeks I'd started writing several new pieces but only came close to finishing a few of them. I often found myself losing the will to write them before they were even developed. I can't really say why. I don't know why. In a way I feel I've said what I want to say, and in another way I feel that people are beginning to wake up, so there's less compulsion to try to sound off. Whatever it is, it comes down to me not doing much writing for a while.
I've been unusually busy with some other things, creative projects that require the full and dominant use of a different part of my creative brain than I use for writing. I've had a lot going on with web site work and also with getting an archive site set-up and running for The Grassy Knoll shows after the plug was suddenly pulled on that front. I felt it too important to try to keep those shows accessible to people and could not sit idly by and accept them not being around anymore. The result of that effort has paid off with two sites you may find of interest. In fact both were finished just days ago. One is an e-zine, "Inside the Grassy Knoll"; and the other is an audio archive site that is still developing into what it will be when it's in full bloom. Here are the links if you'd care to check them out.
Thank you sincerely for reading my posts and for your wonderful and very real responses to them. I don't much enjoy the non-wonderful responses and wish those wouldn't come along so much. None the less, this blog has been a thoroughly great experience and a gratifying validation of my belief that there are many people who really do care and really do get it and really want better for this world that we all live in together and must share whether anyone likes it or not.
We have a long way to go to get there, "there" being a good place that is just, and more moral than not, and just plain decent for everyone instead of being this selfish "obtain the height of laziness, luxury and power for a limited few while all the rest have to F.O. and die" format. That's such a bad game plan it doesn't deserve or require comment here. Few would think otherwise, but it's those few who need to be enlightened, really enlightened, in order for us to begin getting off this one way course to self destruction on a global scale.
Although I haven't been writing, I have continued to watch the grand old orchestra of lies and death eternally playing its only song, "It's all about being rich and powerful". The big wheels of the cold machine never stop turning, grinding the bones of helpless people all over the world into forgotten dust. People everywhere are getting crushed under the weight of the one world order machine. The rest of the world seems to impassively look on and only sighs in relief that it wasn't them, this time.
The rich and powerful are going for the whole thing now, there's apparently little to stop them. They want to privatize the whole of the world, down to uprooting the last peaceful peasant in the remotest place. They want their serf world, their master/slave global scenario; it is finally within grasp, and they'll stop at nothing to get it. No amount of other people's suffering and loss will detour them from obtaining their death saturated "selfishness and laziness" prize.
It doesn't appear to have struck many people yet that putting all of your eggs in one basket is the worst possible way to do things, but it is the way the global privateer movement wants to lay things out for themselves. And it is all for themselves and not for anyone else but themselves, despite the warm fuzzy sounding rhetoric. You don't even have to peel back the curtain anymore to see how disgusting they are. Compare what they say to what comes of what they do. They are taking the world by the throat and will not let go until it stops struggling or stops breathing, either way, they think, they'll come out on top.
Sadly they believe that all those who perish in the transition will be part of a natural phenomenon, a settling of contents during shipment, like boxes of cereal or bags of chips. It will be better in the end, they say. They're obviously sociopathic assholes but I don't see how to get that message across to them. If you know of a way by all means share it, I'd be more than happy to take them on with some love letters and grounded advice about what it means to be a human being in this world. It's my opinion against theirs and their money doesn't make their opinion more valid than mine, though they would obviously differ on that. But they are not alone, they couldn't do anything they do without gigantic numbers of us regular folk going along with them. I'm afraid the truth is they don't really care about what really matters most in life, and sadly it looks like a lot of ordinary people don't really care either. It's all about playing a great big contrived game, a rigged popularity contest, and it's all about winning. It is that juvenile and that shallow. What an oxymoron, losers who think they're winning when they're not winning anything at all. Such a stupid, shortsighted unreality based game where the winners feel good for a while and then end up dead in the end like everybody else. And they say shiny objects only distract dumb animals.
What a shame and a waste it all is. A day doesn't go by that I don't mourn the tragic, albeit ancient repeating events that keep our precious little world from evolving itself into what it could be. The waste of a trashed ecosystem, the waste of irreplaceable pristine water, of arable life giving soils, of unique one of a kind species that are not here to be used up but to perform a particular function in the greater scheme of it all. It is all connected. It is all a unified, living, breathing, thinking, feeling miracle and mystery that has no explanation or reason for being, but there it is anyway. And we're all in it. But always, always, there must be some who cannot feel the awesome beauty of this vast mystery, and who cannot appreciate it in any way, shape or form. To these peculiar ones, all that matters is right now. Fulfilling the appetites of the moment in whatever way feels good to them, at the expense of anyone who gets in the way or who represents fulfillment of said appetites. As long as we, human beings, are seen as commodities by others, as long as this incredible planet is seen as a sack of goodies to be picked over by some few misguided individuals, we will all suffer the consequences. As these misguided others gain more and more power for themselves they do greater and greater damage, and as long as people are too afraid to think for themselves and see where it all will lead, then I'm afraid it's clear enough where we are headed and how this will all turn out.
I don't believe it can be supported to say that killing, destruction and "power" is the formula or the answer to a single thing in this world. Killing solves nothing but a selfish, irrational need to control and possess that which is not yours to control or possess. Power is an imaginary thing, just as security and money are imaginary things. Money has no meaning or validity anywhere except inside our heads. We believe it into existence, but it does not otherwise exist, nor does total safety and security or 'power' over others.
We humans don't like to think, and we don't like having to fend for ourselves. We want to be taken care of, and in exchange for subsistence levels of what we think we want and need, we will follow Satan himself into hell and we will torture and kill perfect strangers who have never done us any harm. We will attach electric wires to women's vaginas and nail men's testicles to the floor on Satan's orders, then go home afterward believing ourselves to be good people who are doing a fine and noble, important job of keeping the world safe from bad people. I am not making this up.
Pretending there are no rules and that anything we like goes is a childish, selfish self-excuse for inexcusable, harmful, horrific behavior. Making it up as you go with rule number one being you can have it all your way and nobody else counts is the very definition of immorality; such a simple concept and yet so grossly misunderstood. Morality is how people treat each other, that's all it is and all it's ever been. We can't be immoral to ourselves, we can only commit immoral acts against others, and we do this every time we choose not to live the values we claim to have. It is fact that there are literally millions of people today who sell and buy other human beings to be used as personal slaves. Adults and children both are bought and sold into sexual slavery, used as domestic slaves, cooks and laborers, and God only knows what else. As long as there are such broken people, such immoral people who cannot see or don't care that others are just like they are, then we won't move forward. Because those broken people breed and carry forward their mental and spiritual diseases, ignorance and sociopathy, over time it is ingrained into personal and cultural DNA. People can't change their own DNA, at least not easily. More so, they don't want to change, no matter if it is for the better.
So yeah, we've got a hell of a challenge ahead to ride out. It can and probably will bring into being the primordial spiritual stuff that brings forth some of the best that human beings have to offer, but at the same time that best will forever be under vicious attack by those who believe it is good and personally prosperous to hold humanity as a whole in chains.
As long as people think that brutalizing, controlling and enslaving others is a normal thing and perfectly natural and sensible and reasonable, we'll stay an awfully long way from changing this world from a slave planet into a free one. Because really, that is what we are. The vast majority of us are slaves at the beck and call of both known and unknown others who want things this way and make things this way, and who by conscious choice order the punishment, imprisonment and executions of dissenters and thinkers and those who speak of freedom and justice and things that go beyond all this violent mess. And the majority of us support it. This spiritual disease is nothing if not infectious and near impossible to cure. Few realize or would believe that the very idea of enemies is something that does not need to be, but it is a strong idea that is roundly embraced by perfectly good people who all share the odd belief that they and their particular group are number one. Whatever that means.
The only way of doing it right is by letting it be what it is; letting everyone work it out for themselves. If that sounds like anarchy then what is an-archy but the absence of archy? Mon-archy. Olig-archy. What's so bad about that? You and I are still here either way; those archy-types have very little to do with all of us in truth and in reality. It's all in what we think and believe and are led to accept as truth whether it's truth or not. Have we ever tried it without grand archys at the helm? Not that I know of. Who says it's such a bad thing? It's worth a twirl.
Accepting differences between peoples isn't all that hard when there's no scarcity or nothing to compete over that requires someone's demoralization or death. It does not have to be done as we do it now and have long done it, requiring and even rejoicing in the mass deaths of millions of others we don't even personally know a thing about just because they are 'bad' and we are so very good. We're not intellectually or spiritually well. Not yet at least.
I think we're always trying to evolve along those lines because it's our natural direction. Yet the more we evolve the more the fearful, the blind and the stupid "cheat" and use violence to try to deny and discredit human progress and development. The R&P's (rich and powerful) have everything invested in humanity staying afraid, blind and stupid like they are. Afraid, blind and stupid people are easy to control, and the R&P's whole thing is controlling others, controlling everything out of unrelenting fear. They are fear based beings, cowards, afraid of the reality that it's all beyond control and beyond answers and even beyond understanding. They can't handle that. Neither can most of us. Even though it is simple reality and in inescapable existence all around us at all times, we prefer to think otherwise, and that silly fantasy gives us release from all our silly fears.
It all boils down to our own conscious decisions, our choices, our morality, our shared values and visions of today, ourselves and tomorrow. As long as the vast majority of our voices cannot be heard or will not be recognized we'll stay stuck in this outdated, self destructive spiritual/mental prison, and wars will rage on and innocents will die and women will be raped and children will be orphaned, not for any good reason because there are no good reasons for such things, but because it is what we're constantly told is "right". If we lack the intellectual prowess to see through that, then we'll live and die in it. Obviously.
I'm quite interested in hearing how others who have come to the same place I have see things. Do they see an overall, incrementally gained progress for the good side or do they see the bad guys coming out ahead in the end? When you add modern technology into the picture and face up to who controls all of it and how they most want to use it, for military domination and planetary control, it is easy to feel understandable panic and believe the future is guaranteed to the worst of humanity to own and control. There are those who say this is our unavoidable future but I disagree.
It's not that cut and dried. Technology can be used for good as well as for bad, it's not technology in itself that's good or bad. Things always and forever will come down to who we are as a species and who we let dominate our world and set our values and define our beliefs. Minds can be changed, thankfully, that is one thing that is a defining truth about who and what we are.
Our most serious problem seems to be our reluctance to engage our brains, to use our own heads, to perceive and think for ourselves and to value the world around us according to what we can easily see to be right and wrong or good and bad. Easy stuff, simple stuff, if your head is in the right place to begin with. Unfortunately, on the average, we are more concerned with what others think of us than what we think of ourselves, with fitting in to a senseless status quo than creating our own solid and real status quo, to looking like winners than actually being winners.
It matters a whole lot what we think winners are and what we believe matters most in life. If we think the most important thing is to have power over others then that's what we'll want to have. If we think competition is great and wiping out enemies is grand then that's what we'll get high doing. If we believe that following mere mortals as if they were God is the thing to do, then we'll do it and not give it a second thought. If we think luxury and sociopathy is better than real happiness, then that's what we'll go for, at the expense of suffering and loss to others, to anyone but ourselves. We go along with whoever seems to be leading when we don't desire to lead ourselves. So even when we are forced to face the truth that having a dishwasher or a car doesn't bring us inner peace and happiness in life, we'll simply try for bigger and better dishwashers and newer cooler cars, never connecting the long rows of dots we've left behind ourselves over so many empty, disappointing years. This is not the path to getting what you really want and need is the message we cannot hear, even while we're drowning in it.
Clearly, the human mind needs a jump start, a little help, some assistance cranking itself into action. It needs good role models to emulate and better sources of information that frame independent thinking and morality as serious forms of wealth, as things to want and treasure for ourselves. You can scour the official 'out there' but you won't find that message anywhere. There's no mystery why. There is no greater threat to the R&P's and selfish cowardly controllers of any millennium than having huge numbers of people gain self respect and think for themselves, deciding for themselves how, why and if they will do anything. Especially threatening is the inevitable moment when thinking people choose to no longer participate in the dead end game of R&P uber alles, or war, or greed, or scarcity, or slavery, or force, or any of the cheesy, cowardly selfish ways things are done in this world. There are such better ways, so much more that can be and will be just as soon as people begin to think for themselves, and begin to value things honestly and accurately, starting with themselves.
You can't lie to somebody who knows the truth, it won't work. No wonder the truth, real truth is something feared, hated and rejected. No wonder we are all led to believe that which is false and personally disempowering. No wonder we actually can't discern the obvious when it's right in our faces. No wonder we willfully cling to and defend old, habitual, nonsensical beliefs and habits and ways of doing things and seeing things, and fear to death anything that would make us strong and personally powerful and self-responsible. We much prefer to be on our knees to others who want power over us, and that pretty much seals our fate. It's obvious you'll never get a fair break on your knees. Yet, even whilst down on our knees we will defend to the death our right to stay there forever.
That's what has to change.
But I digress. Can I digress or what? All I really came to say today was that my absence was likely to continue until it stops continuing, and I don't know when that will be. I don't know why it is per se, only that it is. Other than some scary high blood pressure, I am fine and otherwise probably too busy for my own good. That said, I will write again at some point, so do check back again, at some point. I'll catch up with you then. Until then, take care and be well, and though it hardly needs to be said to you, keep on thinking. That is the only thing that can and eventually will change the world.