Friday, January 30, 2009

Rest

Sorry I haven't written for a while. It seems I won't be writing for a while longer, so I thought I should let you know because so many of you are such darn nice people you actually worry about me or wonder what the heck is up that I'm so silent all of a sudden.

Here's the deal. I'm in a place that's somewhere between having too much to say and not wanting to say anything at all. The concepts are too ubiquitous to nail down; this is attached to that and that is a part of this and of course there's always the flip side, which makes it hard for me to walk in and grab a section to have a starting place.

This is not a bad thing, it's a very good thing. I call it my molting season. This is a time for intake and pondering, for finding clues, seeing patterns and connecting dots. It's not something that can be subjugated or controlled, it can barely be grasped. I have to let it be what it is. It feels like I'm treading into new territory, going to the next logical level of perception and understanding, and that's what it's all about.

I also am feeling the very strong need to cleanse my spirit and detach from much of what usually commands my attention and focus. I need to play for a while. I'm involved in some pleasurable creative pursuits, one of which is designing a magazine cover that requires some intensive artwork and that's exciting and big fun. Right now, focusing on creativity that isn't about writing is the ticket so that's what I'm doing and will continue doing until the molting season is over. When it is over I expect it to end suddenly and without warning. Then I'll be back to my typewriter, pounding out thoughts and new ideas and hopefully have something worth saying to write about.

So there won't likely be any new posts for another month, maybe longer, I honestly don't know. I hope to catch up with you again when I get back; I figure if it's meant to be it will be. Until then I welcome your emails and otherwise wish everyone well. See you later alligator.

8 comments:

  1. Good for you Ang. Speaking for myself, I understand totally. By writing about the darkness, you've been giving it your energy, and focusing that onto yourself is a great way to recharge those batteries.

    Good luck and look forward to hearing from you again in the future.

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  2. Take care. Recharge, refresh do what you need to feed yourself. We'll be here when you get back.

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  3. Anonymous7:27 AM

    Enjoy your journey...

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  4. Ever since I read your "Deviation is Evil" entry about two months back, I've found myself browsing through your blog a time or two per week. It's refreshing to see that others actually care deeply about the issues you address. Your writing even helped to show a friend of mine that he's at least slightly less alone in caring about such deep societal issues than he thought he was (long story, but basically your writing helped him deal with an environment where he was being told to shut up and quit caring so much). I hope life's tide brings you renewed energy and material for all your creative efforts.

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  5. It's good to take time off. When I was new to these topics, obsessed over research for about 8 months, and burnt myself out. Taking a break every now and then will indeed give you better perspective in the long run, more power to you.

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  6. You have written a great collection of heartfelt posts, which I hope people will continue to discover.

    Thank you

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  7. Will miss your posts dearly.

    Take care.

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  8. I'm so glad I found your blog.
    Sometimes words just aren't enough.
    You say it better than I do though.

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