Monday, April 26, 2010


Neither my mother nor my step dad had any strong sense of religion, so it follows that I didn't grow up having one myself.  It was possibly one of the nicest things they ever did for me, or didn't do for me, to not instill in me some prefabricated pre-supplied preordained required belief system regarding religion and religiosity. 

Whether or not they knew they were doing me a favor, their own general silence on the subject left it to me to do my own searching, comparing and questioning, which I did do pretty early on in life.  I think that's pretty much the norm too, to do this kind of searching and questioning early on.  Doing this exploration on my own enabled me to approach the subject with a very open mind, without pre-supplied expectations, preconceived notions or ideas of any kind. 

Even though my mom never went to church or talked much about religion, she very much encouraged me to go along with school friends who often invited me to church with them.  My closest cousins were Catholic and their mother, my aunt,  made them go to church every Sunday even though she often didn't attend with them. She still sent them to church and to years of Catholic Sunday school too.  So I was able to sit through many a Sunday service at various churches in the area, visiting the Catholics, the Mormons, the Jews, the Presbyterians, the Unitarians, the Scientologists who are extra creepy,  and various assorted others.

Hollywood has done a great job depicting "the church" as a place of benevolence and caring for people but truth be told, the last place I'd ever run to in a time of need is some church.  While I know there are good churches with good people who really do get it and who don't turn the church into a power playing game show, there are plenty who do.

Official church structure is a standard Power and Control template that looks the same in government, officialdom, and any hierarchical status obsessed self important supposedly authoritative conglomerate of borderline and/or flagrant narcissists, control freaks, power junkies and attention addicts. It's all about them and about you doing it their way, or else.  Or else what?  Or else you suck like a terrorist dog while they act nonplused, arrogant and vindictive with you.  Because they're such nice people.

Well that's what they claim to be.  Not just any nice people but THE nice people.  The BEST people EVER.  And it must be so because they say it is so.  That's enough to make it so, isn't it?   If you look the part and say the words, everything you say is true, isn't it?

Simply by virtue of them saying, "We are the best people EVER.  We are above reproach, above suspicion and above having to prove ourselves to anyone at any time.  We represent the highest good and the highest truth.  You're either with us or you're against us.  You're either one of us or you're on the other side, you're the enemy, the misguided, a danger to our goodness and light keeping the world safe from evil people.   You have to believe us and never question us because we are never wrong, even when we're wrong.  We never do wrong because it's impossible for us to do wrong because we represent the highest good and the highest truth.  We're the good guys and we set THE ultimate standard for what being good means and what doing it right means.  We are your role models AND we live up on pedestals because we're more special than other people.  And that's that. Period.", that makes it all true.  Simply because they make these claims, (albeit not in so many words but that is their modus operandi go ahead and tell me I'm wrong),  simply because they represent this queer philosophy, people believe them.  Most everyone believes them and takes them at face value, en masse. Because that just makes so much sense, doesn't it? 

No, actually, it doesn't make sense.  It makes no sense at all.  It's stupid.  You'd have to be dumb as a rock or have the IQ of a kindergartner to think that just because someone is some kind of authority figure they can be believed and trusted.  They can't be trusted.  They're total strangers.  Why would you trust them when they feed off public money and don't appear to be suffering for it in the least?  When they're better off than you they're not your servants dear one, they own and control you.  Grandiose authority figures least of all deserve public trust.

It's a real shame that our public education system is so useless that a sack of  farts would do you more good than 14 years of public indoctrination; because if people knew the slightest amount of history they'd know this.  They'd be able to recognize horse hockey when they see it.  They'd be able to tell the difference between a big fat liar and a statesman.  They know the difference between facts and faith, between manipulation and honest discourse, between hypocrisy and fairness.  I'm afraid Americans have been so deprived of education they can't tell the difference between their own ass and their elbow.

That's why being able to come at all of this with an open mind, a clear mind, allowed me to see it and hear it, experience it and evaluate it for myself.  What I can tell you about doing it that way is this:  when you are able to see something without having been propagandized about it first, you stand a much greater chance of seeing what's actually there, not what you've been told is there.  And that my dear friend, is no small thing at all.  It's a honkin' thing.  It's the crux of the biscuit.

I didn't understand a thing about organized religion, it was completely foreign to me.  And coming at it from that kind of a blank slate in mind and heart, it soon became apparent to me that there was nothing much that organized religion had to offer me.  It was clannish and fraught with pomp, curious behaviors and hypocrisies; plus churches were not friendly places at all.  In truth they were often down right ice cold.  

Sitting through services in a variety of churches didn't do anything for me beyond boring and confusing me, and sometimes  even offending me.  Organized religion is about as clear as mud, and the fact of the matter is that you have to be indoctrinated into it, brainwashed, programmed, whatever you want to call it, but it has to be pumped into your head first and thoroughly or it can't make sense.  The reason for this is self evident, to me at least.  Organized religion is not natural.  It is unnatural. It's an invention of man, a club, a social structure, a political organization, a good old boys thing.  Whatever you want to call it, it isn't real.  If it was real it wouldn't need to be explained to me, I'd be able to experience it and understand it all by myself. 

Things that are real, things that are true, don't need to be dressed up funny and propagandized to get everyone seeing the same thing.

Do you need the ocean explained to you when you're standing on a beach somewhere, looking out at that vast expanse of moving water?  Nope.  You sure don't. You can take it in all by yourself and you can understand it well enough all by yourself, you don't need any help at all.   The ocean will speak to you the same as it speaks to anyone who stands in its presence.  It's majesty, beauty, mystery, complexity, it's sensuousness, speaks to one and all, even as it speaks directly to you personally. You experience it personally, you have no choice. Your senses will take it all in as your mind expands and focuses.  The sound of waves crashing, the feel of soft sand beneath your bare feet,  the invigorating clean smell of energized salty ocean air.  The warmth of the sun upon your face, the tickle of wind whipping through your hair, the shrill calls of seabirds flying nearby.  This is reality and I don't need it explained to me. 

I also don't need any help feeling the spiritual aspects awakened in me just by standing there taking it all in.  At that moment and every moment I'm there, I feel fully alive. Every moment feels laden with meaning and truth.  I'm sure of my experience and it is unforgettable.  It is profoundly inspiring, relaxing and exciting all at the same time.  This is the truth.

Most of all, in the context of this subject, I don't need a thing about it explained to me.  In fact I'd venture to say that anyone presuming to tell me anything about the experience would be way out of line.  They're not qualified to tell me a dang thing about what I experience or feel or see or think about while I'm there.  What arrogant stupidity it would be to wag your finger in my face and tell me how to perceive the beach and what to think, do or feel while I'm there.  How bizarre you would be to approach me and say I need the Holy Book of The Ocean before I can properly go to the beach and understand the rules and the hierarchy and do it right.  If you did that, what could I say but, "Who the fuck are you wookie, to tell me anything?" Such impertinence could only invoke from me my usual helpful and to the point response, "Kiss my butt". 

Before I get anyone all ticked off as I am so prone to do whenever I bring up the subject of religion, nobody needs to rush in to defend their beliefs and nobody needs to attack me as if I'm an actual threat to your religion's domination of the country and most of the whole dang world.  Trust me.  Nothing I can say or do will so much as put a teeny dent in religion's stranglehold on the human mind.  So please, just exhale and let your anger float away.  You're fine.  Your beliefs are fine.  I'm not judging you and you don't need to judge me.  I am stating my views which are different than yours.  It's not that what I'm saying is all that horrible, it's common sense.  If you're upset it's probably because what I'm saying is not the same as your current dominant viewpoint on religion, and you just can't tolerate a different view point.  But you need to tolerate it.  I have to tolerate you and it's no big deal on my part.  Why not do the same and we can both have what we want?

I'm not saying that churches and organized religions are all bad.  Then again, maybe I am saying that.  Maybe that is how I really feel, but even I suffer from some of the cognitive dissonance that the deeply indoctrinated true believers suffer from so profoundly.  It is really hard, painful even, to believe that people who are supposed to be good and right and decent and caring leaders of the people are in fact big fat nasty ass liars and thieves and child molesters and scum bags.  That's hard to let take root in the deeply indoctrinated, trained brain.  It means letting the feeling of extreme and brutal betrayal set in, and nothing, I mean nothing, stings quite as horrendously as the feeling of being betrayed. 

In the case of important leadership, important people the whole world follows, finding out they have betrayed you does more than cause upset, it would cause social collapse.  Pandemonium.  At least for some people for a while.  Mostly only those who it actually comes as a shock to that all those glowing public personages are just mere mortals like everyone else and they, especially, are prone to do Big Fat Evil for the simple reason that they can.  They can and you can't, so whose going to do the big bad things, them or you?  High crimes mean just that, crimes done by those in high places, and that's exactly who I'm talking about here.  It is sadly some of the most beloved and well trusted names in the world who are in fact people we should not trust because they're fuckers.  They really are.  And it's not a secret, the proof and the reality surrounds us and persists.  All the evidence you need to wake up and smell the bastards is right under your nose.  But it's like they say, you can lead a betrayed sucker to the bastards but you can't make him smell.  Or something like that.

And while I've got some of you in a raging state of strong offense I might as well carry it all the way to the finish line.  If what I'm saying is true, and it is, and you CAN check it yourself, if only you would, if these famous faced leaders are liars and thieves and fuckers then it must follow that their entire spiel, all of it, is high falutin' horse crap.  I know it hurts and I know it's even harder to believe but the FACT is, it's true.  Everything you think you know is wrong.  That is if you've been hooked into the mainline of dis-info and Pablovian Brain Training all of your life like most everyone has.  Just like religion isn't "real" because it's not a product of nature, politics and most of what you think of as modern life isn't real either.  All of it is products of men.  They're all created, they're an illusion, a game we all play.  Some of us know it's a game and others aren't capable of understanding that.  Some people can't handle it so they refuse to see it.  It is pretty awful when you suddenly realize nothing makes sense anymore and your whole world and life is a lie.   I can understand not wanting to look at that.  But only to an extent.  If you want to claim that truth matters to you then you can't stay there for too long.  You have to march down that scary abandoned back road all by yourself and deal with whatever jumps out at you.  And good luck to you, not everyone makes it.  But for the record a good many do make it, and they're infinitely better off for it when they're through.

Getting back to the subject, let me make clear that I am talking about formalized religion and the formalized church.  I am not talking about anyone's bibles.  There's a lot that can be gotten from any spiritual writing, if you go at it sincerely and on your own once in a while.  I think the Bible as well as the Koran from what I've read of it, have plenty of  truth in them.  The truths that monotheistic religions share are moral truths and that's a good thing that religions do.  We need morality taught to us and repeated and expounded upon and repeated again or else we're screwed. 

We're all watching right now what happens when your lunatic psychopathic greedy elites forego morality like trimmed off bread crusts.  Everything turns to stinking depraved shit.  It may be fun for them but it's causing the whole rest of the world a whole lot of suffering.  And that is the very nature and definition of evil and wrong doing and crime.  What else could it be but achieving pleasure from acts that cause others harm, loss, suffering and death?  What's worse than that?  Not much.

And that's what morality is and that's why morality is so tremendously important.  It's just too bad that it has to be left to formal institutions to be our earthly representatives of morality because they're all manned by ordinary people like the rest of us.  They're not 'just as prone' as the rest of us to behaving badly, but are exponentially more prone to it because they have access and means to do serious damage and they encounter hard core temptations on a daily basis that the rest of us can't even imagine. 

When you or I screw up we usually don't hurt anybody but ourselves and maybe a few people closest to us.  But when these Power and Control elite windbags screw up, a lot of people die.  A lot of people get hurt.  That's why when they do it it's so important to hold them fully accountable and make a big production out of it.  If we don't do that it's like signing a permission slip that says, "Dear Scum Bag Elite fuckers, it's okay to have your way with us and our children and our lives and our prosperity.  Don't worry about us, you just have yourselves a good time at our expense".  But I don't feel that way.  I wish so many others didn't feel that way too but apparently they do or this shit wouldn't keep going on while the scum of the earth elites kill us all off one way or another.

How many high level government officials getting indicted for felonies is it going to take before we stop telling ourselves it's only a fluke?  How many more thousands of people coming forward to talk about being raped by priests is it going to take before we face the fact that pretending to be a goody two shoes is the perfect disguise for life long committed pedophiles and that there's a whole shit load of them in the Catholic dream world?  How many more cops do we need to see getting off after committing cold blooded murder and engaging in cover ups to protect themselves before it starts to soak in that officials and authorities can be criminals too because they're just people too, in fact that's all they are.  They ARE NOT their clothing or their guns or their bibles.  They are not the flag or the red white and blue.  They are not truth, justice and light, they're ordinary mortals, imperfect and flawed like everyone else.  They're often selfish, self serving and ambitious.  They're wealthy, arrogant and in with a whole different thing and a whole different crowd than you and I.  They are plain old people who frankly are obligated to us because they live off of us.  They're supposed to be doing us good, not having us serve them while we're down on our knees letting them get away with everything from murder to fraud and waste to abuse to rape to all kinds of crime.  When are we going to get it that these people are just plain people, they're not special, nobody's special, we are all flesh and blood?

As soon as anybody presents themselves as "special" to me I already know they're full of it.  Nobody's special, least of all, nobody taking a public salary.  There's no such thing as a pope in nature, go look for one, you won't find one.  Go look for a cop in nature, or a president, or a king, you won't find any of those either. You won't find any because they're all totally made up ideas, guys wearing costumes and play acting these roles, they're not a truth or a reality.  Do you really think that some guy has a hotline to heaven?  A special pass to God?  Really?  And how did that happen, the day he was elected to his job by some other guys?  Come on, get a grip. Nobody's holy.  If anyone is holy then we're all holy and you know, maybe we are.  Maybe that's the problem right there. 

All these people want you to believe that you are less than they are.  You are less of a person than they are.  You know less, understand less, deserve less, are worth less, have less ability to understand truth, less knowledge, less potential, less importance than they do, and if they can get you to believe that then maybe they can get you to obey them and follow them and treat them like special people who deserve to be rich and pampered and butt kissed and never disagreed with and held to an entirely different set of rules and standards than everyone else.  But I have to ask.  If anyone's all that special why can't they follow our rules and standards like the rest of us do?  What's so special about them that they can't be like we are?  What's wrong with being like we are or rather, what's wrong with them that they can't?  Something is very wrong there folks, it doesn't make sense.  Are we really to believe that some people's path in life is so important or so special that they are above the law?  Above every rule of decency and morality and justice?  That they have some right or need to order others to death or imprisonment based on their personal ideas and not based on laws and rules that exist to keep things sane and safe and fair, at least to the extent that that's possible?

I know nobody's that special.  Why doesn't the general public know that?  Why do so many people assign "star" status to famous names and faces and grovel before them just because they've heard of them or seen them on TV?  Does that mean something?  What does it mean?  Does it change the fact that they're only ordinary people like everyone else?  Certainly they're better off, they're spoiled rotten, they've had a much nicer quality of life in everything from food to homes to education to opportunity to adventure.  I think there's more there to resent than admire but that's just me I guess.  I just don't see how people get to idolizing other mere mortals; following them, blindly believing them, letting themselves be lied to and crippled and stripped of dignity and strength and intelligence to the point of spending one's lifetime waving a stupid little flag or threatening to punch out anybody who has a different God than you.  These are the actions of the truly stupid. It is sad to say it, but there it is man, I'm not making it up.  I'm just reporting it.  There it is.  What would you call it?  It's stupidity.

If anybody has the right to perpetrate deadly force against another then we all have that right.  That's a reality.  If you're forced onto your knees before the court or the king then you're being lied to and treated like dirt by liars and thugs pretending to be superior beings when they're clearly not superior.  If they were all that superior they wouldn't have to resort to being thugs, liars and thieves, engaging in censorship, threats, fixed courtrooms, political filth and ploys, spying and double dealing until they turn the whole world into a dirty cesspit.  How is that superior, exactly?

Which brings me to the point of all this which is that we are not meant to follow others.  Respect is to be earned, one on one, not blindly granted, not required by law, not given away more cheaply than free popcorn.  We are better served to be dubious and suspicious of people we don't know, taking public incomes and prancing around under authority of auspicious labels and titles and other ridiculous means of hiding one's true intent and behavior.  Evil specifically hides in the guise of good, that's where you'll always find evil.  It's in your church, it's in your government, it's every place that officialdom hangs out.  People demanding to be seen and treated as better than anyone else are full of crap.  So if you follow mortals unquestioningly don't be too surprised when you wake up one day only to find out you've been used, abused, lied to, cleaned out and taken for everything you've got.  There will indeed be much wailing and gnashing of teeth. That's what happens when you put ordinary men up on pedestals.  Because as much as these types go on and on about how great and right and chosen and holy and patriotic they are,  the only unshakable truth is that nobody, nobody, has it all together.  Nobody has all the answers.  Nobody knows "the truth" in totality and nobody could possibly know your truth, that's for you alone to figure out.  And nobody else can make any of your life choices for you because they're not you and they can't know what's right for you. 

Don't say nobody ever told you.  You've just been told. 

Now get out there and question authority.  Question everything.  Start acting like you're every bit as good as Joe Biden in his expensive suits and every Senator and Banker scum bag on Wall Street.  Because you are.  And it is only liars who believe otherwise and want you to believe it too.  Why?  Because it makes it so much easier for them to rape and pillage the world if you don't think you deserve better and if you don't know that right is right and wrong is wrong no matter who's doing it.

And that's that.

Love & Fear, Freedom, Might and Right

Demands that certain kinds of people be unable to use public programs to receive certain kinds of medical treatment, or that after serving one's time that felons may not vote, or using anyone's private information by corporate, government or institutional entities for any purpose but especially to discriminate, manipulate, deny access, jobs, housing, benefits, freedoms or rights is like demanding that certain kinds of people be unable to use public roads. 

Public roads and highways are to be used without respect to persons, status, wealth, race, religion, gender, sexual orientation, state of employment or unemployment, credit rating. Public roads may be used by anyone regardless of whether they've ever been in jail or not, been to college or not, can carry a tune or not;  regardless of who they voted for or if they voted at all.  Public roads are there for one and all, for better or for worse, in sickness and in health, whether you're nice or not, good looking or not, smart or stupid, tall or short, fat or thin, pigeon toed and knock kneed or bowlegged or not, child or adult, whether alone or with others, happy or sad, big or small, naughty or nice, creepy or not, or any other judgmental attempt to marginalize and ostracize people and tear the people apart until they are hate filled and the whole of the country is brought to ruin because of boiling wars of petty self righteous indignation, greed, selfishness and resentments all because we forgot what it means to love freedom more than feeling superior to other people who, quite frankly, we're never superior to.   Public funds are used to benefit the public, all of the public, one and all equally without respect to any personal criteria. 

It needs to be said, apparently, as a reminder, that this is the basic principle of American style freedom.  The real kind of American style freedom, not the phony and strange politically 'correct', totally undermining of real freedom kind that's destroying our real freedom and real justice and real rights today.  The attempts to create officially recognized categories of people who are okay and not okay, acceptable and unacceptable are illegitimate, a disgrace and shameful, and fly in the face of the respect for self and others that freedom, justice and common decency requires.

Shouting down others instead of supporting their right to speak their mind shows contempt for the right to speak your mind without fear of imprisonment or death.  It also shows ignorance and arrogance, neither of which do anyone any good. 

Those who claim to love America but behave like rude, selfish ideologues have brought foreign, ugly destructive values into the American value system and those foreign values are murdering everything we stand for in this country.  They have brought shame, hate, intolerance, discord, dishonor, vicious politicism and ill will into the hearts of the people, and these things are destroying us from the inside out.

We can do what we do out of love
We can do what we do out of fear
We need to use reason to get to truth
We need truth to be able to have justice
We need justice to be able to live in peace and in freedom.

Real freedom is blind. 

It doesn't care who you are or where you've been or how old you are or what your religious beliefs are.  It doesn't measure you by the mistakes you've made in the past or the successes you've achieved. Freedom is based on respect and good will.  Freedom is not won with blood but with respect and good will.

Real freedom is blind.

Real justice is blind. 

Fairness is blind.

Truth is blind.

Honesty is blind.

Courage is blind.

Honor is blind.

These are based on love.

Trust is not blind.

Faith is not blind.

Worship is not blind.

Responsibility is not blind.

These are based on reason.

Spreading False Rumors
PR and Spin
Double Standards
Refusing to talk out disagreements
Refusing to allow the other to have equal time to give their side
Refusing to hear the other side at all
Refusing to set aside petty differences
Use of force for personal gain
Petty criticism
The need to control others
Excusing one's self or one's side for wrong doing
Being content with cheating to get what you want
Lying to get away with wrong doing
False pretenses
Omissions and misrepresentations of facts
Betrayal of trust
Disrespect for other people
Blanket judgments of persons or entire groups
Hating the person, not the behavior
Monopolies of power
Monopolies of ownership
Apathy and indifference to of others
Purposely bringing discord and upset into the lives of others

These are based on fear.

These are not based on love or reason.
These and many others are based on unreasonable fear.
Hate and jealousy are made out of fear.
What we fear controls our lives.
What controls us prevents us from being free to do and be what we're capable of.
Fear is a prison, a torturer and a liar. 
Fear is death.
What we fear must be confronted head on.  Confronting first what we fear the most is the most important thing we have to do in our lives.  Confronting what we fear must be our highest daily priority.  Confronting what we fear is the only way to be released from bondage in all of it's various forms, all of them destructive.  Bondage means being controlled by and/or promoting that which is not rooted in love and reason.

If what we say, think and do
is not based on love and reason,
then what is it based on?
And is it legitimate
or is it self excusing our fears,
coddling our own lesser tendencies?

What legitimate reasons exist to deny justice,
to refuse to hear all sides,
to show common courtesy,
to require oneself to have common tolerance,
to show common respect?

Let's never forget that no one among us is perfect.
There is no such thing as someone who has never been wrong,
someone who has never made a mistake,
someone who has never said or done something clumsy, selfish, rude or worse.
No one among us knows that which cannot be known.

So let us dismount our high horses, shall we? 
Let's be more willing to forgive.
Let's look more toward what good can come and
less toward seeking punishment or vengence.
If, that is, we care at all for freedom,
or truth,
or life itself.

And let's get something else straight once and for all.
Might does not make right.
Might makes victors and vanquished.

Many are obsessed with winning and losing.
So obsessed that winning by honest means in a fair fight means nothing.
But what makes winning desirable is the fact that you have proven yourself and that you are truly the better man.
"Winning by any means" is the new goal.
Their fear, insecurity, greed, jealousy, whatever it is, has taken control of them.
They self excuse that which has no excuse.
Their beliefs deny right.  There is no right in might unless the fight is equal and fair.
Otherwise it is only slaughter.  It is only a crime.
Pick on someone your own size.
Let's see you win in a fair fight.
No one is impressed by fools, ideologues, lackeys, thugs or cheaters.

Using overwhelming force against the defenseless
is not winning, it is crime.
Cheating to obtain victory is not winning, it too is crime.

In a moral world it is the obligation of the strong to protect the weak.
In a moral world strength is only used for defense.
When strength is only used for defense, to protect the innocent,
to protect the defenseless,  force and violence are minimized
or eliminated completely.  Overpowering strength need only
show itself to keep peace and ensure justice.

It is when overpowering strength, force, is used to harm the helpless,
to loot and pillage and kill the innocent that peace is eliminated
and justice is crucified on a cross of hypocrisy.

The way superior strength is used, be it in the form of weapons of war
or knowledge, how any greater advantage is used is what defines good and evil.

In a moral world, the belief that might makes right is immoral.
Might has nothing to do with right, only right is right.  Might used
for anything beyond literal self defense or to protect those who need
protection against all forms of aggression and oppression, is wrong.
Yes, overpowering force and violence, be it physical, mental or emotional,
can crush and destroy your competition, your enemies and your human decency
but it cannot and never will make anyone right.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Humility's Wake

Ah, hello there, I guess you heard the news.  Our dear old friend Humility is dead and you've come to his wake.  Welcome.   I was just about to begin a remembrance of him for Posterity's sake.  Yes please, by all means join me, come and take a seat.

Friends, strangers, all, we are here to day to mourn the loss of a dear old friend.  A friend who has served us well in days past.  A friend we haven't seen much of lately;  who we began to see less and less of over the years until he all but disappeared from our midst.  Our dear old friend Humility has indeed disappeared for good.  He is dead and gone.  Things will never be the same without his wise and equalizing presence.

At first we thought Humility was outsourced, shipped off to some God forsaken place where people are uncivilized pagans who barely wear clothes and who dance naked in the moonlight having wild sex after eating hallucinogenic mushrooms until they reach frenzies of insanity causing them to not want to give us their oil.  What else can we do when we see them dancing nude around the fire, having sex with each other outside of the bonds of legally acquired holy matrimony, worshiping false idols and refusing to sign our oil contracts,  but kill them to make the world a better place? 

Did I just say that?  Oh dear, how dreadful.  You see it is happening already.  Humility's loss has already begun to affect me, I'm already sounding like a fascist imperialist sonofabitch.  God help me.

If only Humility had simply been outsourced at least he would still exist somewhere, like Gilligan on his faraway isle, we could hold hope of seeing him again someday. 

But alas, Humility was not outsourced.   Humility was picked up outside of a movie theater by National Security Police with faces covered and no name tags, stripped down to his shorts, injected with consciousness altering drugs, and flown to one of the government's secret detention facilities that we don't need to know about, where he was summarily and brutally tortured; water boarded 800 times, and would have been ready to confess to giving birth to Satan if he hadn't unfortunately died in their custody. 

They tell us Humility killed himself by wriggling out of his shit and slime covered restraints to purposely hurl himself head first into a vat of hot boiling oil and that he did it just to make them look bad politically.  But between you and me I have my doubts about that.  Humility was just not that kind of guy. 

What on earth did Humility do to deserve to die?  What wrong could Humility do?  Why couldn't it have been Hubris, that prick, or Arrogance, who seems to be everywhere these days?  Spite and Intolerance are all over the newspapers, Ignorance and Hypocrisy are in all of the magazines, Stupidity even has his own hit TV shows and national radio programs.  Loud mouthed politically apoplectic media monopolizing manipulators, why couldn't it have been one of them who got picked up and suicided to death?  That would have been a good thing.  A wonderful thing.  A great thing!  All of them suck big time.  But Humility?  Dear sweet gentle wise tolerant understanding patient respectful Humility?  A terrorist?  Impossible.  Never.

No.  I just don't believe it and I never will.  Official testimonies be damned, I will never believe it.  Humility was innocent of any wrong doing.  This is the cover up of a terrible mistake or a terrible misunderstanding or a terrible planned extrajudicial politically motivated execution.   It has to be one of those things because there is no way Humility ever did anything wrong to anyone, anywhere at any time.  If Humility was a threat to this government or National Security then we have a much worse problem than we'd ever want to be stuck with.  As it is we're already screwed.  We're double screwed with a black booted cherry on top. 

And now this.  I don't need my sunglasses any more, everything looks dark enough already.

For-profit health services are not health "care".  There is no "care" in what they do.  Caring is a nonprofit activity.  It is personal in nature, emotional in scope, and its benefits are far reaching, incalculable and 100% free.  Caring is something that comes from the heart that makes the world a better place.  Caring is not bossy or full of crap or demanding  or arrogant or selfish.  It is just caring.  For-profit health services have nothing to do with caring.  They have only to do with sales and profits. They are a vending machine.  Pay up and get one of these or one of those.  Next time you need some more go find the vending machine. There's not even a fully staffed kitchen anymore, there's nobody there now; just some change machines.  No human touch.  No human talk.  No discourse, no smiling faces saying welcome, have a seat, would you like some coffee?  There's no one there at all.  Ever.  The walls are cold steel, the windows on the machines are smudged with fingerprints, and there's graffiti all over the walls.   Messages of angst and fury written in spray paint in full view of the nonfunctional security cameras stuck to the ceiling; they express the fundamental insult of the inhuman pay or die game of profiting from the illness and injuries of others.  Only the utter lack of humility could allow sentient beings to be able to reach such shameful lows of callous selfishness and wrong doing. "We only care about you if you have money".  Yes, that's a beautiful sentiment, if you're demon spawn.  Without humility there can be no respect.  Without respect there can be no justice.  Without justice you might as well shoot yourself now and get it over with.

I'm sorry, I am sorry.  I am depressed and perhaps seeing things as much worse than they are.  Or maybe I'm seeing what's right in front of my eyes and that's what's making me so depressed in the first place.  In any case, don't pay much attention to me.  I have no idea what's to come.  I'm not fricken Houdini.

I need to blow my nose.  Hold on a sec please.


Okay, that's better.  Sorry about that.  Where was I?  Oh yes...I remember now.

How utterly dehumanizing and demoralizing the capitalist machine has become.  And we wonder why people are so angry, cynical and hopeless that they go on shooting sprees or crash their airplanes into office buildings.  There is no mystery here.  Without Humility people can't get along.  Without Humility there can be no tolerance or desire for truth or understanding.  If only Humility were still alive, he could explain it to us so well.  Humility could always make everything perfectly clear.  Humility brought Balance into any equation and ushered in Truth to join the party as well.  What a great gang of guys.  Will we ever see Humility's friends again?  They may all be dead too.  Come to think of it, it's been a while since we've heard from any of them.

We are all much worse off for this sad and meaningless loss.  We are going to feel it too, mark my words.  I miss Humility so much already. 

Good-bye Humility.  It was so good to know you.  Now that you're gone the world will never be the same.

All we can do is pray that reincarnation is real.

Otherwise, we should prepare for the plunge into 21st Century style Corporate Elite Fascist rule over all our lives. Total crushing control by international elites over the new burgeoning Global Calcutta; massive slums of starving wretched people who have no hope;  whose bodies are used at will so that corporations can continue to profit.  Not much to look forward to there I'm afraid.  Sorry kids.  We will see a lot more dead people.  TV dinners, soilent green, what's the difference?  Can't read, so what?  You can text on your cell phone and if you don't have electricity I guess you can always not text and just sink into total stupidity and pointlessness. That's what they have in mind for you.  If they let you live.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm doing it again.  It's just that at this moment I don't see how we can survive without Humility.  I can't see anything good ahead without Humility to guide us.

Farewell Humility.  It's a real fucker pucker that they killed you dead.  We really need you.  The ones who killed you needed you most of all.  Doesn't it just figure that things turned out this way?  They always said that only the good die young.  That leaves only the bad to get old and bossy and greedy and crushing the world with violence and hate and control.  Dear dear Humility, I swear this is true, you will be sorely missed.